Hi to all...(kalau ada yg still read this blog)
Long time since I've written anythin in this blog.

Anyhow its been a month since I finished of my so-called 6-months course.
Now back in my old office, 'working'.
Hmm rasa different sbnrnya bila dah masuk balik ke office.
One thing is tht, u r no longer with ur coursemates..ur friends who've been together for the past 6 months.
It really feels different in the first few days.
Really miss them the first few days.

BUT now, a month later.
Those feelings had gone.
Already been able to adapt to this change.
But the good thing is, still keep in touch with them.
And actually i've CREATEd a blog especially for them.
AND tht's why baru ke hari ni nak update blog sendiri. :P

Hmm dunno wht else to say.
Till next time....

Whoaaaa....
A huge relief!

Kenapa?
Sbb aku baru je balik dari program anak angkat di Terengganu.
Afta almost 3 weeks stay kat umah orang, finally I'm back.
And my 6 months training pun dah nak abis...2 minggu je lagi...huhu.

Abt my penempatan kampung, aku telah ditempatkan kat Kampung Kederang, Daerah Setiu.
Yeah, I know most of them never heard of it.
Setiu pun tak tau kat mana kan?
Takpe, aku pun before g sana I've no idea where d heck the place is.

BUT, a big BUT.
After spending 3 weeks kat situ, I've learned a LOT.
Their culture, cara kehidupan kat kampung.
Cara pemakanan ( ni paling best, I think I've gain weight already, makan mmg tak ingat dunia!)


ANd my family angkat?
Well, derang muda lagi.
The father is 10 years older than me.
AKu panggil dia 'pakcik'.
And I have 5 adik angkat.
2 girls and 3 boys.
ANd the boys are really naughty.
Really, really naughty.
Budak kecik la katakan.

ANyway, tak sempat aku nak cerita semua kat sini.
Aku tgh siapkan paperwork for my research masa kat kampung aritu.
So will continue in d next entry yea.....

To be continue...

Yeah i'm back...albeit for a short while only.
A quick, super quick update.
Now it's been almost 4 months since i joined the DPA training.
Another 2 months to go.

Last time i wrote here, i was just abt to go to a 5 weeks outdoor module.
Well i've been back here for abt 3 weeks.
And tomorrow...will be gonna go out for another 3 weeks outdoor module, starting with the military training at Pulada, Kluang, Johor.
Then i'll be goin to BTN training camp in Meru, Selangor, and lastly to another outdoor module called 'kecerdasan diri', and most probably goin to taman negara pahang.

Guess that's a lot of input for now....will continue later when i come back again...

do i look skinnier....?

Hello fellow readers of my blog,

I'm back, but only for a short one here.
It's been a month++ since my 6 months training started.
It's been class, class and class so far.
Asyik pegi belajar, mcm zaman student dulu.
I haven't go out for any outdoor module yet.

Skrg ni, dah blajar pasal ekonomi, research methodology, HR and next week pasal protocol plak.
Huhu, pening jgak kekadang.
Ada assignments, end of each week ada test.
Really stressful at times, but sometimes bila fikir balik tak perlu g office n still dpt gaji, it's great, isnt' it?
Hehe.

ANd from March, I'll be away.
Will be going to the police, OBS n Bomba module.
It will be tough 5 weeks straight.
Starting from 12 March.
Sampai lah ke middle of April.

And know wht, during this period, 2 significant events in my life happened.
One is my anniversary with my dear, the other one is my own anniversary...my birthday.
Huh, sedeh jgak ni tak dpt celebrate, but wht to do.
And need to inform here, from 19th-3rd April (roughly), I'll be cut off from the outside world.
Wanna know why?
Sebabnya aku akan g OBS kat Lumut tu.
Handphones or other means of communications is not allowed.
So for 2 weeks, if anyone of u tried to contact me, I won't be there to answer it.
It will be hard, but life is hard, isnt' it?
Selagi tak cuba benda2 mencabar ni, u won't know ur own limits and capability.

Ok lah till next time....

 

The title says it all.
Today is my last day in the office, for now.
Start dari esok, aku dah amik cuti, right till the start of my 6-month training.
Gerun tul bila dgr 6 bulan ni.
Malas nak fikir sgt.

Anyway, with this also, this might be the LAST time that I wrote an entry here.
Lepas ni sure takde masa sgt to even jenguk this blog.

Just a small thought tht I want to share first with the readers.
Last year, 2006, was a mixed year for me.
Things happened, and it happened for a reason.
Things beyond my control...happened, and under my control, also happened.
I regretted some of it.
Why? Because I didn't try to salvage the 'thing' tht happened. My fault, I admit it, my mistake.
But some of it, well, heck with it.
I've tried, tried, tried so many times.
I've given up, then somehow I did try to do something abt it again. and again.
And yet, same thing happened.
Kenapa ye aku ngan 'dia' ni?
One thing yg buat aku rasa puas hati is tht, aku dah cuba sedaya upaya aku.
Tht's it.
The loss is her's (err terlepas plak ckp) , not me.
U want it to be this way, fine.
U want goodbye, is tht it, my friend?
Tht's the question tht u need to ask urself..

Enuff abt tht.

6 months....
I'm goin to miss my bed, my room, my family, my house...and of course my Dear.
6 months...
I'm goin to be skinnier, kulit makin gelap, and maybe kepala kene shaved.
6 months...
what else? huwarghh sungguh tak keruan memikirkan.

So guys, will be seeing u again in 6 months time, unless aku ada masa n rajin untuk update blog ini.
Take care, have a gud year ahead.
Doa-doakan lah supaya aku dilindungi dan tabah menghadapi cabaran dan dugaan ini.
Sayonara..
Selamat tinggal..
A'kum....

-n-

In a twist of event, things can change dramatically.
It happened to me last Sunday.

Mula-mula tak expect la plak, benda kecik leh jadi besar.
Gaduh pun mcm besar la jgak kan.
Hmmm, maybe memasing tension hari tu.
Things got out of hand.
Me with my own issue, dia pun sama jgak.

I was hurt.
So is she.
Both of us felt the pain.
Mayb Tuhan nak tunjuk.
Things can't be taken for granted.
We fought, we reconcile, we fought, we reconcile again.
In the end, things are made clearer to us.

Forme at least.

Aku rasa bersyukur jgak, sbb benda ni terjadi.
At least, both of us knew the feeling, and felt the same thing.
Skrg ni, things are getting better.
Rasa mcm we've been given yet another chance.
Another chance to see how this 'thing' will work out till the end.
Moga-moga in the end, it will end up the way that both of us wished for.....

Only time will tell..

:: Missing her....

Aku ada terbaca satu entry dari blog ND.
Tertarik dgn statement 'Sustaining Relationship'

It's true.
A relationship can be the best or worst thing tht can happen to u.
I've seen the good n bad side of it.
Bila fikir balik , in any relationship pun, the way or how u manage to sustain, or hold on to the relationship - itu yang penting.

Ppl can say, love can fall at first sight, once u fell in love with a person, then everything is all beautiful bla bla bla.
Itu mmg betul, tapi lepas dah fall in love, what will you do?
What do we NEED to do?
SUSTAIN it.

Easier said tht done.
Mmg mudah berkata-kata ketika mula-mula nak mulakan sesuatu relationship.
Mmg mudah nak berkias-kias ketika hendak mengenali seseorang.
Tapi amat sukar to prolong to relationship for the whole of ur lifespan, unless u really know ur other half.

This is wht I could say as, the good and bad side of a relationship.
The good - if you really know and understand ur other half, not just from the beginning, but right till the end - and be able to sustain the relationship.
The bad - if you have all it takes, but no idea on how to sustain it. huh, what a pity kalu dalam situation ni.

I really, really, really, really hope tht I've learned from all those experiences, and be able to prolong this time out.
Aku tak tau kenapa, but somehow, I hope this IS it.
No more after this.


:: Hope that the one I'm seeing now, is the ONE I'm looking for all this while.....

There's always a first time in your life.
First time in doing things.
This week alone, I had two first time experience.

Last week, I experienced what the term VIP means.
Hehe.
As I said in my earlier entry before this,I went to Sabah for a convention.
Pegi ngan bos, BIG boss of my ministry.
Sepatutnye kalau pegi sana, you have to go thru all the immigration checking of passport and all tht.
Tapi for our entourage, we just go thru the vip golden lounge, without having to go thru all the immigration checking.
Same goes, masa nak balik ke KL, check in first.
Then directly pegi the VIP room, waited until abt 15 minutes before plane takeoff, baru pegi.
Cuma satu je, aku tak dpt business class. Cuma economic class.
Heh, takpe la. Mayb itu aku akan dpt experience in abt 5-8 years lagi?
AMinnn...

Satu lagi, hari ni aku baru start kursus kat satu hotel ni kat KL.
Kursus 3 hari sampai Sabtu ni.
I was appointed as an emcee for this kursus.
Itupun last minute bos bagitau semalam masa nak balik.
Haisk, mana la aku pernah jadi emcee before this.
Gelabah mencari idea nak ckp apa.
I think my performance was so-so.
A bit dissapointed with myself.
Bos pun ckp, esok tukar ngan org lain plak :(
Takpe la, an experience which I will not forget.

Itulah the things that I did/experience for the 'first time' this week alone.
Huhu....

p/s: punye la takde cerita lain kan? ini pun jadi laa...